A Brief Reflection
Lost my mind
Found my spirit
It’s been over a year since last I took the time to sit and express the inner workings of my thoughts. At first I was very disappointed… I thought how could I let myself fall off so hard , how could I let so much time pass before I realized that I was slacking on my personal goals. I began to beat myself up, and become depressed. Then I thought back to everything the last year has put me through , mentally , emotionally and physically. I had to take a step back and reflect, realize that even though I was not doing everything I thought I should be, it did not mean I wasn’t making progress. You see our perception of things really makes or breaks our experience. At first all I could see was what was going wrong.
I hadn’t written a blog in a year
My monthly playlist hasn’t been up 7 months
I haven’t had my own place , or even a stable place to stay in 9 months
My mental health is up and down
I’ve been fucked over by people who were meant to help me
The list could really go on and on …..
Then one day my spirit literally shook me and said “BITCH , LOOK AROUND YOU!!! YOU ARE BLESSED!, LOOK AT EVERYTHING WE’VE ACCOMPLISHED!”
You’ve been living out of your home state for 9 months
You got to LA with $40 in your pocket and your still thriving
You’ve been through HELL and yet you still smile at life
You have been cultivating strengths you didn’t even know you had
You’ve grown exponentially , you are no longer the same person you molded yourself to be
You are open to the miracles life has to offer
The list of things to be grateful for goes on for infinity….
For anyone who needs to here this, things may not be going the way you want or expect them to , but they are definitely going the way you need them to. The circumstance you are experiencing is not always a reflection of you. Your decisions, actions, and intentions are , sometimes life allows things to happen to you, to see if you can really handle the blessings you wish to receive. You really have to let go of control and have faith that you will succeed because you are everything you need. Do not press on the negativity of your situation, react with grace, keep your head high. Make the best of everything you have, even nothing is something… It’s the full potential for anything to happen. Believe in miracles….This too shall pass.
